It's all going to end.
Yep.
Is it a bird?
Is it a plane?
No.
It's
GRADUATION.
Much to my surprise, I actually feel a tinsy bit sad that I'm leaving foundation.
Just.
A.
Tinsy.
The thing is, I gave my sell exactly two weeks till the end of foundation to find a reason to feel sad to leave foundation.
Yes.
I wasn't even remotely moved to feel the sorrow of the separation that's about to fall on the 7th.
In fact, more than anything, I wanted to leave this place.
AS
SOON
AS
POSSIBLE
Yes. I was that miserable. Well, for starters. I was always alone everywhere anyway so what was I looking forward to miss? I'm not trying to blame anyone or anything. I really don't. They were already used to their companies and I'm just a boulder in the way.
This first happened on my birthday.
You see when I was in highschool, I've always been this girl who's done surprises for my friend's birthday. Being the loser that I am.
I've.
never.
gotten.
one.
-.-
But I had my twin sister with me and that was more than it takes to make me happy.
And when I entered the university, I'd thought hey! Maybe everything IS going to change.
I wasn't entirely wrong.
It would've happened but something else happened too.
Something that changed everything.
So yeah. No birthday surprises. Everyone was too busy.
Worst.
My twin was not here with me.
So my 19th birthday filled with fake smoking acting, endless crying and a body too tired to rehearse for choral speaking marks the worst birthday I've had.
But, it wasn't all that bad. As it reached the end, I got a pity surprice slice of oreo cheesecake by the Jamilah Hannans and pep talk with my besties so everything got better. At least it could've been worst.
And after that well,
I gradually began to feel more and more alone.
Which was I thought I hated my foundation life and vowed to myself I'd never miss my foundation life.
But I also, gave myself two weeks just in case a miracle happened and I'd actually find a reason to miss this.
To my surprise,
I did.
And I literally cursed when I realized it.
After involuntarily meet with few people, got involved with a few groups and something hit me.
I just felt the taste of being in a group again.
And I wasn't sure that I was ready to let the feelings go so I really tried to make myself brave to ask them to have lunch or dinner with me. Which was hard cause oh how big my ego was.
And yes, I've managed to amazingly changed my mind in two weeks time.
So, here's to farewell, blessings and the end of UiTM Kuantan 12/13
This Wednesday is going home.
