We can make believe or convince ourselves that the world is in the way we want it to be. Picture it all we want. At the end of the day, we have to accept the fact that reality is reality.
I came across a phrase of wisdom on twitter one day (I know, oddest place ever). It goes by something like this.
"We can't expect the world to be fair to us just because we're fair to it. It's like telling a lion to not eat us because we don't eat lions."
I would really like to give my utmost respect to the person who wrote this. It put me much thought with the things that have been happening around me. Just because you don't do certain things, put yourself under certain limits and shape yourself in a type of mentality, your mind is not engraved in anyone else's. What you value may not be the same as others.
I have come to accept the fact that in general, I am not, well, likable.
Let me lay the details for you.
I am very loud -VERY. What's worse is the fact that I am a blabbermouth. I don't notice it sometimes but I talk a lot, a lot about myself. And you know what you do when people talk about themselves, you don't really give a crap and all you wanna do is tell the person to shut up.
And do you know what's more annoying than a person who talks about themselves, it would be if they're loud in class too. And I don't mean loud with friends, I mean loud with lecturers.
I for one am very enthusiastic when it comes to class participation. Call me a teacher's pet or a snitch but I have always believed that participating in class is no longer something to be ashamed of -compared to when we were in school. And whenever I do that, well don't you just get disgusted?
I'd hate to admit it but the fact is, is that I am 'that' girl who nobody likes in the movies.
But why don't entertain myself with it? Because I tell myself this is not a movie. This is the real world. You are no lead actress having everyone's attention over you, so I don't bother pretend to be someone I'm not to impress society.Yes, that's another interesting topic. Society.
Let me delight you with the society I live in.
It occured to me that somehow everyone here wants to be noticed, and they want to be different. And the way they do it is by being, well, the same (no shit).
Everyone keep telling me that they wanna be different. But whatever majority spells is right, they abide by it. Social codes play a big part don't they? If everyone says Secret Recipe has the best cake, you must follow! Starbucks has the best coffee!
This gets worse when it involves people. When one person makes fun of this poor oblivious being, everyone else follows. Of course, it's alright to do that because if you were in their shoes, it wouldn't hurt right?
Oh of course, this is predictable. Why would I bring it up if I have no relation to it whatsoever right?
I was told by a friend that I was unlikable by most of my peers. Did it surprise me?
No, not really.
What ran into my head was the thought that everyone had dropped the issue of my "personality disorder" in the past. We've entered a new semester. One would think they'd reach a new level of maturity. I guess not.
What sickens me most is how well they can act so nice in front of me.
Somewhere in my heart, I had always wanted to believe that maybe if I don't talk bad about people behind their backs, they won't do the same to me. If I looked into their hearts, maybe they'd to the same for me too.
Alas, I have made to much of a point in the beginning to betray it now.
It took me a whole day -it was hell- to get over the uncomfortable thought. Hey, I said I wasn't surprised, I didn't say I wasn't hurt. How would you like it if someone told you nobody liked you in front of your face?
I should've realized sooner what I was about to realize the coming day though. No matter how hard your life must be, there are always those few people who make them meaningful. I may not be a friend of 100 people, but I have those few who really do overlook my annoyance and look at my heart. In fact, I'm lucky I don't need to be surrounded by fake people to please myself. Because I'm different, but I have friends who tells me upfront when I'm being annoying or tell me off when I'm being irresponsible or who laughs at my unfunny joke because its amusing to her.
We can make believe or convince ourselves that the world is exactly the way we want it to be. But isn't it better when we accept the true nature of it, with other people? :)
"We're different. Unique people belong with unique people." - Nyx
"It's okay. We can be punny together." - Doge
"It's okay. Whatever they do to you, just tell me. I will protect you." - Mr Croft
"You're that special kind of fishy." -Mad Hatter
