Sweater Weather

It's no surprise that it suddenly rains today. The rainy season has yet to reach it's ending. In fact, it has only just begun. The rain somehow gives off that very lonesome feeling don't you think? The timing couldn't have been better I mean we're almost reaching the end of the year. In a blink of an eye it's already 2 weeks till the end of 2013 so it's only legit that you'll have this weird sense of sorrow. Looking back at what has happened and what has changed and what remains. And thinking about what you should do to wrap up another year in your life. Of course I'm not excluded. Here I am stuck at the cafeteria waiting for the rain to slow down so I can at least attempt to walk back to my room dry. I have nothing against the rain of course. In fact I love it very much. If I wasn't holding too much important documents in my file and my bag I would've walked back without giving dipshit. I really would. To my dismay though, heh. It was a long day to be honest and I really want to just go back, do my long-awaited laundry and get my not-so-well deserved sleep. But sitting here sort of makes me think of what I've been doing my whole life here and if I'm doing it right. Out of the blue, I started to be reminded of my parents. A part of me just wants to call them and ask them am I doing it right or are they proud of me and am I gonna be a good batch from their product. But, knowing my parents so well  we would start off with an awkward greeting and a bit of catching up and it'll probably just end there. Yes, my parents are bad with personal talks. Being the only child who studies in a public university, some people think you'd be so proud of yourself. Yes, I admit. I do feel that bit of pride but more than anything, I feel burdened. Will I be able to make it? All my life I've been one of the laughing stock, labelled as a slow and dumb child. Finally being able to do something that makes my parents undeniably proud of me, what if I screw this somehow? The thought itself is scary. Looking back at myself in school, I definitely didn't think I'd be able to make it this far. But alas, I was fortunate and lucky to have this opportunity. But what the future lies? It's scary indeed.